- May 2nd, 16:47
I just found out I'm iron deficient. According to my doctor my iron level is about a quarter of what it should be. I'm actually really happy about this, because it's something that can be treated fairly easily. Maybe then I won't have to sleep ten hours a night to feel rested, or wear two sweaters indoors just to feel warm. That would be incredibly nice.
I think one of the curses of being mentally unwell is that you're constantly wondering if you feel like hell because there's actually something wrong with your physical health, or if you feel like hell simply because you're mentally unwell. Like, am I tired all the time because I'm kind of depressed and would actually just like to stay in bed most of the day? Or am I tired all the time because I have an iron deficiency? It can be hard to tell, especially since you're already busy wondering if you're genuinely and unavoidably depressed, or if it's something you could shake off if you were less lazy and self-defeating. So the question ends up being, "Am I tired all the time because I'm lazy and self-defeating, or because I'm genuinely depressed, or a bit of both--like I could be dealing with it a lot better but I actually am genuinely depressed, or maybe I have an iron deficiency, or maybe all three?" And usually somewhere in there you make the barely-conscious decision that you're too lazy, self-defeating, and/or depressed to go to the clinic and have your blood work done.
But I did have my blood work done, finally, and it turns out I have an iron deficiency after all! Hooray!
Side note: Do you realize that if you spell "liver" backwards, it has the word "evil" in it? Or that if you add an 'e' to the end of liver spelled backwards it makes "revile"? I feel the universe is secretly commiserating with me on this. Also, "onion" spelled backwards is "no I no." So basically, liver and onion is an evil dish, and one should refuse to consume it. *nods* Seems like a pretty clear message to me. On the other hand, if I want to wear a t-shirt without shivering, ever again, there is going to be a fair amount of liver in my future. :(